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[05 Mar 2008|02:48pm]
Haven't written in here in a while, and I don't plan on doing so, but I figured I'd give a shout out to Jasmine across the ocean and that's pretty much it. That and I graduate soon and have no idea if I want to stay here or follow through with moving out to Chicago. It was different when my mommy was living there. I would have had a sort of safety net. Now, who knows. I like being able to see her and Eric and all my baby ferrets and my kitty and my puppy here. And I love the home gym that Jonathan has going.

Erin wants me to stay here. Umer is going somewhere. Taingy is going somewhere. Jasmine will be coming back. I don't know what I want to do. I love city, and I totally have awesome friends there, but yeah I don't know. Can't get the kind of job I want if I stay here, but I don't know what I would do there.

Everything's weird. I feel like I have to go somewhere else for a while.

Tonight is reading, reading, reading, reading, paper, paper, paper, paper. If I'm lucky I will sleep, but who knows if that's gonna happen or not. No classes next week. I can't wait for that. I can only hope to get some sleep done and go on a raodtrip with Erin that we don't get lost on. Well, not lost on the same street for several hours at least. Though that "vacation" will involve a lot of paper writing. The weirdest show is on and I have no idea what is happening.

The weather sucks. The streets of Burlington look like rivers. Walking around campus was insane, and walking back from class, the sidewalks looked like streams. It was going through the ice. Outside my door is just water, and I'm pretty sure that if it doesn't find somewhere to go I'm going to fall pretty incredible style when it freezes up. I should send my lady Jasmine some kind of picture of this. The trees had that ice storm look to them this morning, and last night the snow looked like snow cone snow. It's weird. Puddles are the fashion. The best reference would be the time we went swimming in the cul-de-sac. That kind of raining and frozen ground problem. Of course the rain then was way worse, but this situation has the same kind of feel to it.

I would like some sunshine and to know what's going on.
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and tommy doesn't even know what day it is... [04 Jun 2007|02:44pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

So Chicago was probably the best trip I've ever taken and it was hilarious. It was cicada season, the ones that come up every seventeen years and people were going crazy and dressing up as bugs. Ladybugs, bees, cicadas, and by the way people were known to dress as two distinct types of cicadas which we were all taught to tell apart from each other.

Saturday was hot, Sunday was freezing, Lamb is delicious, fried chicken Monday. I got a swan and a fair amount of drinking. Job interview, I got to walk around Michigan Ave by myself. Really nice shoes, quality time, Farmers Market, best granola bars I've had in my life and then a hot dog at the zoo that only my picture of it will describe. Incredible and I took so many pictures. Thursday was North Ave and wind that we couldn't see through and it was still hot, and people were being pussies but the dogs got to go for a walk. Friday fantastic miracle mile all day and then dinner with Nan and Grandma. Not as much spunk as Nan used to have, walking faster than sexy shoes.

Saturday we took a trip to the burbs and I got a migraine in the biggest mall I've ever seen. In my life. It was still fun. Got ditched for bowling but it worked out okay and Karen bruised my back, nice pairing with the stab mark in my leg from the cat and the slice from the ferrets. My babies. Dog bit my arm playing in the yard and then Bernie actually broke skin on Eric on Sunday. Got to see Jason puke and then eat dessert. Kristine declined. The rest of us ate it and it was delightful. Cigarettes and martinis go down easier for some of us than others. Lesson learned. Played in the park, went to Kaze, film taken of that one. Sushi not so bad as I feared. Apparently just here.

I've been back for just about a week. The city is my love, the rats like diapers and I hate rats, but the birds made me cry. Flat is so cool even though hills are still pretty, but pretty for the pretty, flat is for walking. I so prefer the fun of the city to the bickering and the misinterpretations you can only hope you're hearing here. And yet nothing is wrong with ears or understanding and people just need to let it go.

...he doesn't know who Jesus was or what praying is.



How can he be saved?

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[30 Apr 2007|12:47am]
Chicago soon.
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a year's supply of flipping sticks, toothpicks? [26 Apr 2007|12:33am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

So Michelle said I should post, so here is a post for her.

It's not going to be a very good post.

School's over in about a week. Papers, exams, and a night full of nakedness and bikes. Naked bike ride. Hoping it will be fun but not so sure what plans are yet. Had an appointment and then met Erin outside the library for a while. Walked down to my house and played some awesome games. We should play more Skip-Bo though. Too bad we haven't opened up the new deck yet. Someday. Sat outside on the steps for awhile. Steps? Step. Talked. It's cold out these past few days. I need my warm weather back but the cloud cover lately is my kind of outside. The kind a hat isn't required in, only optional.

Fell asleep on my homework today. Political science induces sleep. Works better than sleep meds and not even addictive. Book marks on my face are not so attractive by the way. And I mean marks from a book. But napping was good and talking was good and sleep is soon which I look forward to. There's a post for Michelle. A terrible post.

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every clock in here says something different and it's the story of our lives [10 Feb 2007|01:39am]
I can't remember the last time I wrote something in here, but I don't know what else to do when I can't sleep and I don't want a cigarette. Someday I plan on falling on my ass and going swoosh down the driveway. But not yet. So far it's been other people. Today my bathroom got painted and now it's all fresh and white and the tub is bleachy clean. And I am very happy with the towel rack placement. I'm also a fan of the lights that he installed over the kitchen sink today. They're so cool that I caution people against looking directly at them when they're turned on. Miss Jasmine has to come and see now that the place is done because I still can't decide what to do about my pantry situation. Oh well. I really should try and sleep though because 8:00am isn't that far off.
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objects in mirror are closer than they appear [10 Oct 2006|12:26am]
[ mood | confused ]

Yeah I'm cool. Do I use this thing anymore? I don't think so. Why am I writing in it then?

Good question.

I don't even know. I want a cigarette but it's late and I shouldn't. I'm tired and I don't want to sleep. Maybe that's why. Too much coffee seven hours ago. Coffee and a cigarette is delicious and shaky. Wobbly even, like jello.

So why do white upper-middle class americans collect what they do? according to mukherjee. That's my big question, mine that I have to ask and be assumed to know the answer to. That's why I'm awake. What I do now know is bajajs and arré, and I don't know why I needed to know that. But I did.

No more coffee at night, or dusk. I am, however, a fan of Anna apples, for lack of a more precise name. Not a crisp, not a pie. Delightful all the same.

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[24 Apr 2006|11:46am]
Excited. Tired. Cold.

People have mysterious twins and it's scary.
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[02 Apr 2006|01:39pm]
This is pathetic.
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i thought it was a freckle but you're just bleeding [25 Mar 2006|11:52am]
[ mood | sick ]

I got the flu the Wednesday before break, spent Thursday and Friday sick and not going to classes, and then spent the week of break drinking nyquil at Erin's. Break would have been better if I didn't cough constantly. I'm going to be a wind farmer with Erin. We're looking forward to it. And we will be getting 30 cent hotwings in the windy city. She's bringing 20 dollars. Should be interesting. Bunny is evil and dog loves to eat my food and snore. I want to stop coughing.

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this is so not writing a paper [19 Feb 2006|05:14pm]
[ mood | bored ]

A - Available?: nope
A - Age?: 19
A - Annoyance: loud eating

B - Best Friends?: umer! jasmine sunshine!
B - Bar: pubs
B - Birthday?: july

C - Crush: oh goodness
C - Candy: fancy candy
C - Cat: i don't have kitties anymore

D - Dead Pets Name: minou, wilbur, stuart, gabby
D - Dads Name: Jon
D - roofus and hank: i don't even know

E - Easiest person to talk to: i take classes
E - Eggs: fried
E - Email: school


F - Favorite color? purple is pretty
F - Food: potato, oranges lately, soup always, sauce
F - Foreign Slang: ca bagne

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: the sour ones
G - God: still sam?
G - Good Time: fancy naps

H - Hair Color: red like brakelights
H - Height: 5'3" or more!
H - Happy: ehh

I - Ice Cream: chocolate
I - Instrument: piano
I - Idol: muse

J - Jewelry: i own none
J - Job: ymca and penneys
J - Joke: i won't say it

K - Kids: LOVE me
K - Karate: lis will self defend myself
K - Kite: beautiful

L - Longest Car Ride: to maine
L - Longest Relationship: this one
L - Last Person you spoke to on the Phone: aunt michelle

M - Milk Flavor: 1%
M - Mothers Name: karen
M - Movie Last Watched: cinderella

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Northern or Southern: North!
N - Name: jenn

O - ONE Wish? happiness
O - One Phobia? nasal spray
O - One Goal? better than yesterday

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: so divorced
P - Part of your appearance you like best: gonna go with nothing for now
P - Part of your personality you like best: well i am awesome

Q - Quote: "i just kissed a gay man!"
Q - Question for the next person: that's called being lazy
Q - Quick or Slow?: quick or slow what

R - Reason to smile: i have candy
R - Reality TV Show: i don't do that
R - Right or Left: left

S - Song Last Heard: slow hands
S - Season: spring
S - Sex: female

T - Time you woke up: 12:00
T - Time Now: 5:20
T - Time for bed: well i am tired

U - Unknown Facts about me: stay unknown
U - Unicorns?: seem dangerous
U - U are a......? lady!

V - Vegetable you hate: i can't really say that i love seaweed
V - Vegetable you love: i love zuchinni
V - View on Politics: i don't follow much

W- Worst Habits: the thumbs, the other stuff, not writing that paper
W- What do you wanna be when you grow up: a grownup
W- Where are you traveling to next?: somewhere magical

X - X-Rays: Teeth
X - X-Rated Porn: it was not good.
X - Chromosome: x or y? xx

Y - Year you were born: 86
Y - Year it is now: 06
Y - Yellow?: that kitchen was yellow

Z - Zoo Animal: a camel made me cry
Z - Zodiac: cancer
Z - Zest: lemon zest

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something [07 Feb 2006|05:03pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I decided I should update. I don't really ever have anything to say on here anymore though. School is terrible, the bank takes my money, and Valentine's Day is coming up. I don't like it. I have my appointment tomorrow, and I need it, and I don't like that. There's too much.

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sheila [28 Jan 2006|05:13pm]
Yesterday I hung out with Kerry and then Der and Anna came over and we all chilled for a while. Then we met up with Jess and tried to eat at Taco Bell. Didn't work. Applebees. Didn't work. We settled on Friendly's and our waitress hated us. We hated her though, so it worked out nicely. Then we drove around for a long time.

Today I went to the lake with Kerry and it was warm out and it was nice. And it's been a long time since we've done that. It was good. We walked a lot. We sat on rocks until there was a spider.

I don't know what's going on. I have terrible dreams.
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[15 Jan 2006|10:25pm]
I'm back at school, it's cold, and I don't really feel like being back. I chilled with Rachel for a while. Elisa's not back until tomorrow we think. No one is. I don't like how I feel lately. But I did have a beautiful evening with Der and Anna. I quite enjoyed the wanting to throw up a lot. And my present.
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succulent shrimp [01 Dec 2005|02:48pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I should write in here.

The semester is almost over. I have a new phone so if you knew the old one, well calling it is useless. It's quite gone.
Doctors are useless at headaches.
Erin has a beautiful couch that I helped pick out and we felt kinda bad because a guy was measuring it. We would have felt worse if we hadn't already discussed wanting the couch with the woman working there. Still, I hope he didn't want it.
I love secret things with Erin. We are amazing.
I miss a lot of people lately. And Krista knows it's sad.
I might have summer plans. If I do, it will be pretty cool. If I don't, I will.
People on my floor are awesome. Rachel takes my knitting needles and always gives them back. But someone, and I don't know who, may have one of my books. It's quite the sad little mystery. I might even have it.
I'm knitting again. Knitting is a wonderful thing.
I miss drinking coffee. I was addicted until it made my body want to be unconscious on Thanksgiving. And decaf is a no.

Ice cream contests are to be had. Can I eat an entire small cone? Probably not. Can Elisa eat a Vermonster? Maybe. It's gonna be amazing. It's bigger than she is.

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[02 Nov 2005|12:00pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I'm tired. Tired of school and tired of Karen's bullshit. And of work taking advantage of me like I haven't told them twice in one week what day I can't work, and then scheduling me that same fucking day. And it's cold, maybe not too cold, but cold enough that 37 is not a "warm" temperature, and wind that is so loud I can't sleep is not gentle. It pushes, it's wind. I am cold. I am excited for something though.

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oh you don't even know [24 Oct 2005|03:02pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Yeah so...



That would be me.

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[21 Oct 2005|09:31am]
I slept on Erin's floor last night.

Wasn't cold and wasn't a surprise.

For last night, I love Erin, Lis, Becca, and reasonable temperatures.
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tolerating all kinds of crazy [16 Oct 2005|10:46pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

I could write something but I don't really feel like I have time right now. And I don't really feel like anything I would say is something anyone's going to feel like reading. But I will say that following the rules does nothing but leave me taking care of a baby while $1000 is hunted down in an attempt to correct a wrong that wasn't even theirs to correct. But I love baby Izzy and now I have a life deal with a four month baby. And I love Bailey the puppy. She slept right next to me all night and cried and bit me at 6:00 when she wanted to play. Puppies love to play. Babies love to laugh at me. Cody even sat with me and he hates everyone. Cody's a good kid but I don't like how he pinches. He didn't pinch me though. Jess made the best stuff ever and it was a really good, and definitely needed weekend with them. My pajamas smell like a puppy though. I wish I could help with a certain someone's physics homework, but that was never my cup of tea. And oh the one person who could help is her very brother.

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oh yeah, well, she's a farmer [05 Oct 2005|11:50am]
[ mood | okay ]

A new camera was bought. A migraine of migraines was had. People were seen who very much hate me, and how well behaved and nice I was because I always am. I'm tired and I have a cold, which isn't that bad, except some people really seem to not be able to handle me having one. And that's absolutely pathetic. I have two classes left, I've had two already. I got my French exam back. It was quite a surprise, considering the migraine study time and trying not to cry that whole night. And then crying in Erin's room so accidentally. I hate migraines and people who don't respect what they're like. I love Erin, Lis, and Becca.

I broke my phone this morning. It works, but it's broken and unfortunately it's broken in the one way that I hoped it wouldn't. Erin and me did laundry at her grandma's Monday. It took hours. Cards were played, homework was done, and really good food. Erin brought up marine land or some place, and I touched a watermelon. But what really matters is that we baked apples yesterday and we really baked them this time. To mush. Sweet delicious mush. My feet really hurt. That makes things a little more interesting. I don't get any mail lately. I don't like that.

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like how a toaster pops up. [26 Sep 2005|11:55am]
[ mood | cold ]

I have class in like, five minutes. I've already had two, and now I get to go to two more. It's too cold and rainy for classes, and I would much rather sleep. I have't slept enough lately, but some of it is fun. Ending up where me and Erin did Friday night was pretty awesome, and a bit strange. And oh the girl talk we had until like 3:00.

We bought shirts Saturday and picked apples and ate steak. I love Erin's dog and I love apples. I taught the girls how to bake apples, but Erin was a surgeon. Good apples. Good watching QAF all the time because I own so much and love it.

"Doesn't this make you uncomfortable to watch?"
"HELL NO!!! I love it!"

I got Lis addicted to it, and a few other people, but mostly Lis. What with the pop quizzes. And apparently I know someone who was on TV. Was she? Everyone seems to think so except for like, four of us. That's a little sick. And apparently automatic shut off isn't a word people understand very well. But it's misunderstood with confidence.

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